Prays to the End.

So time is up. 

All you feel is all I can take. 

I'm not the one, I guess I never was, but I had fun. 

I truly believe we met for a reason. 

Maybe later I'll figure it out, but for now I'm just glad that I got out without much bruising. 

It sucks that my love for you was never revealed. 

That the excitement I felt will never be due to you again. 

But I honestly think I got a glance of what it was like to be with my father. 

Abuser of substance, disreguarder of feelings. 

I could have fell down the rabbit hole with you, but obviously it wasn't my destiny and for that I'm glad. 

I don't know much about what I deserve but it has to be more than the shit I've gotten. 

I like to see these different worlds.

To get a taste of life on the other side. 

I was never a bad girl. 

I always did the right thing. 

I always said please and thank you and kept my head down. 

And that was good. 

I'll never disreguard my dreams and hopes. 

I may not care about love much, but I care about my freedom. 

And I'll never let that go.