Therapy Sessions.

So I let it be known of my issue. 

My dependency. 

How there's this hole in my heart.  

More or less it gets filled but is left empty again and a little bit bigger everytime.

I love it, I hate it. 

I have to find a way to stop making fate so fatal. 

I have to believe in me and someone else. 

Hold my hand, keep it near to your heart so I can feel that it's real. 

That we're here without fail everytime like it's not a choice but it's required. 

Simply the most beautiful thing I've ever laid eyes on and there's not much I would do to look away. 

Mesmerized. 

Everytime. 

I know that one day you'll have a face in my head and a place in my heart. 

But until then I'll just keep on with these therapy sessions until I put in enough good energy into the universe to be able to find you. 

The search continues on.