Hanging On.

Take your time.
Let yourself simmer for a little.
Let all the love in.
The earth owes you that much.
Remember the dancing leaves and the quiet breeze.
That kiss that made you feel like a queen.

Hope you never lose yourself without me.

When the highs are followed by lows.

My best friend let's just be.
Kiss me softly.
Always look after me fondly.
Hold me tight by my waist and keep sweeping me off my feet.

Enter a time of great sadness.
A point where I realize maybe I don't deserve you.
Even with all the love I give it doesn't erase the memories of my past.
I keep hurting them and walking away so fast.

No one knows the fear in my heart.
All the questions I ask.
Singing this same sad song every time.
Cry to me, cry to me so softly.
No one will hear you but me.

Grudge Duty.

When your heart hurts.
Your soul feels lost.
You can't feel the ground because it left a long time ago.
The light of day barely meets your eyes.
Opportunity seems bleak.
What are you doing? 
How can you live with yourself?
Take your battered soul.
Take your smart mouth.
Let me go.

Breaking Up. Breaking Down.

She threw around her insecurities like birds throw themselves to the wind.
She was falling to pieces.
She didn't exactly know why, but yet she knew the very reason.
I'm sorry I don't trust myself to be consistent.
A firey woman whose happiness was killed before it could be found.
Something wrong in the soul, at the core of her foundation.
Take a look closer and you'll realize she loves you as only as much as she knows.
Blinded by rage and sadness.
She doesn't have a goal.
A list of demands and then she's out the door.
Waiting to dance the dance of fools all the while breaking your spirit.
We can't always get what we want.
We can't always love right.
And surely there's always room for a lesson because this is not the peak.

Taken.

Away she goes with all her emotion.
Finally there seems to be someone worth it.
It was all trial and error up until now.
Everything she learned and suffered from will help her now.
It makes sense that everything would lead up to now.
Couldn't be more excited or scared.
It's been awhile since life led her down a path of optimism.
She dances along with such pride and gratitude.
Let life go on and get better as love grows.

He's my religion.
I live by him, I'd die by him.
Giving me all the care I could never give.
Not used to being a first thought.
I think you'd like him. 
Someone that can challenge me as much as I challenge them.
Please let this summer be a short one.
I watch the leaves fall and the winter winds.
I can't let this feeling get away from me.
I have to find some way to make it last forever.
I wonder if you get that.
You look at me as if I was the first one, but something really tells me I'll be the last one.
Every other was just something to past time to.
No one can love me like I do you.
Making life worth it a little more each day.
Don't ever let me get away.

Good Afternoon.

I still smoke weed from my ex dude.
But I think you may be my best dude.
Let me walk and play my silly games.
Tell you things I'm still fighting demons over.
I hear the chimes dance as the wind blows.
Just take me away to a warm sunny place where I can escape.
Kiss me deeply and for too long right before it's time to go.
Tell me you might miss me just a little.
Keep me coming back to be your late night snack.
I love it.
I love it.
Life can be so simple with you.
I can see the meaning with you.
I can lock my legs around your waist and be apart of you.
Let it all fall down. 
Maybe this world would be a better place.
Take my very breath away.
Give my soul something to dance and play with.
It's so much, it's too much, it's just enough.
Keep me near and dear as long as I'm good to you.
Love me if you want to.
Not because I need it but deserve it.

Thirty After.

It comes in waves.
The connection.
The lust.
The love.
Terrified of the truth.
I see you.
When no one could.
I felt your pain.
Licking your wounds right along with you.
I've devoted my everything.
I gave you my soul.

The Repeat.

Life was dwindling down.
Her quest for happiness was over.
Now she just tried her best to get out of bed in the morning.
They don't know her life.
But even when they are enlightened they still can't figure her out.
She felt so scared and sorry all the time.
Rage and hate were becoming her new past times.
Why now?
This test she was given she clearly couldn't handle.
One step from walking away to just disappearing altogether.
New Mexico sounded nice.
If only you could just get away in a heartbeat.
If only you could be stronger and have faith.
If only you could feel something good again.

Dumb Luck.

So it's true.
I won't be waking up to you.
I won't listen to your heart or your breath.

It sucks when you picture a life.
When you hear sweet words and wonder "Oh my, this can't be life".
Well it isn't my dear.

I fear the day I'll wake up and no one will be around.
So cold and lonely this winter, but I rather not be found.

I apologize for worry.
And the pain.
Lord forgive me.
I lie in shame.