Loveless.

What is it your heart desires? Who do you need to love you? Why can't you feel okay? The questions I ask myself, yet seldom come up with an answer. I'm not one to throw pity parties these days. I'm a strong independent woman. But at times fall victim to the darkness. It pulls me in and reminds me why life isn't a happy fairytale. It reminds me that I'm alone. It reminds me that everything meaningful in my life is only temporary. That this is what we're doing now and it won't be forever. Perhaps I won't get the love I deserve in this lifetime or even the next. Maybe I am one of the loveless. Destined to be alone for eternity. Maybe it's just impossible to love someone as fucked up as me. Afterall, if your creator talks to you like shit what does it matter if everyone else does. This is the source of my darkness. Of the sadness that courses through my veins. I just want to feel alive again.