To Mourn Those That Never We're.

I'm perfect at it.
Missing you that was never mine.
I thought I was the shit but your distance helped me realize quick that I wasn't it.
Alternate agenda?
Better offers out there..I'll never know.
But what I do understand is that the snow melted, but your heart was still cold.
Thaw out all my hopes and all you get is a wet dream.
I love with my body first, mind and heart will find their way after.
A part of me wants to lose control because of all the sadness.
Days fly by and it's already Saturday.
Where did my mind go?
Gone off substance and shit.
Who doesn't have problems ?
Who cried so much early on that they can't cry anymore ?
Whose heart hurts when they decide to keep breathing?
All we give are apologies.
No love, no care, less respect.
And what's left?
Just a half empty bottle of jack and shattered hopes and dreams.