A Poor Woman's Jar.

I've never been more scared than I am now.
Hands around my neck.
Tears in my eyes.
But I love you.
These are lies I tell myself.
Palms to the wall.
The earth losing all connection with me.
The stars rise and my hope in you falls.
I'm sorry I had to end it.
No mercy.
I pushed you to a breaking point you wanted for so long.
But I care for you.
Like mothers do their children.
Like farmers care for their land. 
I stood by you all these years.
But before I knew it I was gone.
I was no longer yours and you were no longer mine.
But I loved you.
As you let me slip away you took the last thing I had left.
You took away my desire to die.
I found life in that very moment between  life and death.
I had never wanted anything more.
And I think you knew that.
I think you saw it in my eyes as they slowly closed.
I think you found what you were looking for.
It's just too bad you can't steal this will to live from another.
As I rest in peace you'll still be looking for a reason to live.