Here we are now.

I never wanted to see so badly.
This darkness inside was unheard of.
I deserved everything that had come.
My heart was squeezed dry, every last drop of love vanished.
There was a point I didn't care.
I just wanted someone there.
But then I yearned for someone to play a role.
But there was a scarcity of actors and so I made best of what I gathered.
I made up all these good feelings.
I projected.
I had always been the one picking up the pieces.
But I've hit a wall.
And now I must free fall. 
I don't know if I'll survive it.
I don't know if I'll make it.
But I'll always be remembered as the one who loved many and too often...the one who was never enough...destined to be just one.