Whatever.

I find myself trying to fill a void.
In search of something to keep the darkness from coming into my life.
I let go of pain to find my happiness again.
I see things now that I wasn't able to see before.
It's just me here, like it's been for a long while.
Since before time.
Eyes wide shut no more.
Heart numb.
Soul torn.
Thinking too much, or not thinking enough.
I can't tell you that the sun will shine tomorrow. Or that this pain won't be forever.
I think life happened to us both and it was my time to fight back.
One day you'll find your fight.
One day you'll learn to love someone else.
I see the light pouring through the window like these tears pour from my heart.
My soul is washed out and I'm left alone in the dark.
This bed is empty where you once were.
I lay next to my only friend, buddy.
He can't hold me tight, he can't tell me everything is gonna be alright.
But I know it will.
I am meant to love and be loved and I won't ever let those words slip from my mind.
I sit in a corner on the floor at the end of the universe.
With a bottle, I'm intoxicated with pain.
I made the decision to trust, love, let in, and give....and it was all for nothing.
I was betrayed, abused, scared, alone, tricked, and hurt.
Now I'm all those things and more.
I might throw my dreams away, I might turn to the bottle every day.
But at least I made some type of decision for what I feel is right for me.
I had to let go of what was killing me because you we're taking my down a dark road.
You can piss your life away all you want but I won't do the same.
I see a million people a day getting through life, being fighters and that's what I want, those are the kinds of people I come from.