When people look down on you and all they can whisper are words of discouragement. Hurting me so deeply inside.
I can't help but never want to see the light.
To never want to crack a smile.
I love nothing, see nothing, hear nothing, feel as though I will never be nothing.
Slipping further and further away.
I need to get my hands on something solid.
Love, hope, reason, inspiration.
Tired of having this everyday life.
I want it to be beautiful. 
Like a still portrait that takes two months to perfect.
Let me find love in the darkest shadow.
Find hope in the greatest desolation.
Find care in every corner of my life.
Let it all find me, let me find it.