Am I beautiful?  Does this beauty I have stand a chance. I'm not sure. I don't know how to see what I am. Will it last til eternity?  I'm not so sure. I see these beautiful women that win the attention of many..but I attract the attention of few. Itb meant something to me...to gain like..it meant that some of the population loved me. It meant that someone other than those who were supposed to liked me. I need reassurance from a unfamiliar voice. Does that make sense? Not saying nothing bad towards you...just saying...I'm just wondering am I beautiful?

I don't know.

I have no problem deleting people from my heart, from my mind, or even my soul. I grew cold at some point. I couldn't face it anymore. Words do not speak up to feelings ya know. However lies aren't what reside here. Its better known as fear that grips my heart. Fear to fall apart. Fear to look in your eyes and see despise or even worse. You see the truth is, is that the truth hurts. The truth is, is that it all hurts. Life wants me to do all these things at all these different moments and I just can't. I can't save myself from here. Self demise. Seeing my lofe slipping by. Holding onto happiness and watching it slip away. Time after time this happens you see. I can't hold a flame to happiness you see. Count pn others for that please...and you'll get let down by my lack of feeling.