Reasons to Leave the Dick Alone.

Just because it's there doesn't mean it needs to be gotten. 

Wondering what is it that draws me to you. 

Is it the feeling of being complete or is it the pure animal instinct inside?

When you have needs that can be met by just about anyone. 

When all you can think of is all the times you spent laying awake, because life started to seem a little heavy. 

My mind is a mess because of you.

I can't figure out what I want or need from you. 

I'm not used to the attention, I'm not even used to the time. 

It's only me. 

This is classic me. 

Friends With Benefits.

We can't just live anymore. 

We have to touch, we have to feel. 

Giving into our primal instincts, letting go of all restraints. 

It's no wonder we're all still sane. 

I keep thinking I'll be able to say no, I keep thinking the problem's me but that isn't so. 

Temptation is my greatest friend and darkness has become a comfort. 

It's convienient and lacks passion but I'm content.  

You couldn't give me a higher high. 

The days go by and still I think of you. 

But then it dawns on me that we are creatures of habit and I've missed "you" my whole life and there will never be a day where I don't. 

Console me on my problems, comfort me through my grief. 

I'm entirely yours in between the sheets. 

I can be forgotten or I can be your greatest memory. 

But never will I be your everything, never will I be your everything. 

3AM Contemplations.

What keeps us alive? 

Is it love or is it passion? 

Does one come before the other? 

Maybe a passion is created from pure love. 

Or perhaps having a passion is what puts you on the road to love. 

But love comes from many things. 

From an indescribable need for someone to putting them first. 

Even if I don't know what I'm doing, even if I don't float your boat I'm still learning and that's no joke. 

I'll take this lesson no doubt but I'll keep praying for positive things to get out of it. 

Because I don't fall so hard so often. 

And I can't be too afraid or I may actually miss out. 

I've met loners, screaming lunatics, and heartless cowards. 

I've fought, and cried, and hollered. 

Life has cradled me in the lowest of lows and watched me soar on highs. 

I hear nothing in this world can take you places than learning how to handle change. 

Every moment has its own lessons, it's own positives and tests. 

You can't be so clueless anymore. 

Life won't win. 

O = Optimism

Painting a pretty picture, 

and it's all just for you. 

From the lipstick to the curled hair,

she thought this shit through. 

Opening a door to a stranger, but his eyes were kind and his smile was divine. 

Laughs filled the air, butterflies abandoned the lands. 

She was searching for the truth. 

But she took an oath she'd never do this again. 

The night grew old and sparks flew. 

An undeniable craving she couldn't describe. 

Where did this moment in time come from and why did she deserve it? 

The sad part is she couldn't really say she did. 

You'll always lose what you don't appreciate. 

What The Fuck, Baby.

Words are no more. 

I can't begin, or find an end.

Simplicity never existed. 

It's always been anything but. 

I tried hard to not make a fuss. 

My reactions are raw and uncut. 

Logic will sink in and smooth over everything I fucked up. 

One day you'll believe in me. 

I can't stop myself. 

It's so peaceful here inside my head. 

But I'm not allowed to stay in there. 

I'm supposed to let you in. 

I'm not even sure who you are anymore, but I guess we'll find out soon. 

You Can Have Your Cake And Eat It Too.

I wrote a song about you and you don't even know. 

Love was made, passions were thrown. 

My thoughts of you are on the daily. 

I pick up the phone but I just can't. 

Boundaries are loose. 

I was there for you as you are for me. 

A buddy to sink to lows with and drink to highs. 

My tears stay inside but my feelings seep out every now and then. 

I can't keep the stone cold walls of my heart so guarded. 

I'm looking for someone I can share it all with. 

Im patiently waiting. 

I believe in happiness partially because of you. 

Time has gone by and I'm much more whole and healthy. 

I don't cry any more over that life I once knew. 

Every step I take, every memory I make is with the sole purpose of moving on towards something good. 

Something better than every man I know. 

People.

Take me by surprise. 
I never really know why but people take me. 
They paint the story to their liking. 
Some will even give it to you honestly like they’re the antagonist. 
And you look away. 
Find the smallest inkling of light and call it a day. 
There’s no stopping it. 
Destiny brought you here and comfort is why you stay. 
Look into the brown water and let clarity breech your fears. 
You can’t run away and it’s killing you inside. 
Facing all the demons you locked away.
Hearing all the voices you ignored every day. 
I can’t promise you it’ll all be okay but at least you’re breathing.

Fuck Best.

He made his way into my bed, and then into my head. 

Making it to my heart, and that's where it starts. 

The caring, the thoughts, the feelings that come straight from the heart. 

Filling me. 

Breathing is impossible. 

Life comes together and makes sense just for a moment until it melts away again. 

Like it always does. 

He's the best at what he does but he'll never understand me. 

Learn my body and habits but that isn't all there is. 

This isn't a love story but a story filled with moments that could be loving. 

We aren't for one another but it feels good. 

Selfish as can be, innocence leaves me, maturity was never my strong suite so why is life challenging me?