My Fears, My Doubts.

You won't make me happy, just like everyone else I'll turn on you. 

You won't care enough, or always be there. 

The "fun" will become a problem, the quirks will become digusting. 

That smile won't continue to be bright. 

I'll destroy you. 

I'll ruin your life before you even realize. 

But not before I love the fuck out of you. 

Not before I give you my everything. 

Not before I turn myself inside out to please you. 

I'll die in your arms as I always do. 

I'll disappear as suddenly as I appeared. 

And then that'll be that, I'll be as lonely as I was the day before you came crashing into me, the day you came crashing into my heart. 

I've been riddled a fool. 

I thought I could cheat the process and bypass all the steps. 

I thought I could stop myself from feeling, from caring about another persons feelings. 

But no matter how much I close my ears my heart longs to hear. 

I have feelings for you dear, and it's already hurting me.